Do you wonder why?

You know, sometimes i do wonder.
do you?
why we make the choices that we make.
why we jump left but not right.
why we decide eat when we're full.
dumb,profound reasons that might matter or might not.
do you wonder?
(yeah, i'm going all cheesy now)

so yeah, the main point going on in my head is,
do you ever wonder if the choice you made is worth it?
and is it worth to stay true to it?
yeah well, bet everyone would just say think prop, figure out whats best for you and what you want etc etc.
but what if we want it, but dont want it at the same time because we dont know what if its worth it..?

and then the voice in my head goes..
"Stop wondering, just do it. maybe in the end you'll realise that it wasnt worth what you had given and everything you got in return,the tears you might lose and the cuts and bruies you gained.
But still, against all odds, maybe, just maybe something good might happen. you never know if you dont try. and try with your heart, for trying half-heartedly would simply be that you never tried.
Fear not the thoughts af a doubtful mind,think not the stirrings of worry in relevance to reason,
if you never try and give it your all, would you ever know what it is like to have a heart? or would you rather play the 'what if i' game with yourself and suffer the truth that you never tried?"

alright,interval time.
i just got humiliated /// hahahaha.
i bet with jamie on switzerland against portugal.
i thought the match was on now. and well some people are here at the lounge watching a match.
i thought it was THE match.
and well... i asked them the score... they said 2-1. SPAIN 2.
i was like... Huh?????
"isnt this the match between switzerland and portugal? isnt this the match? i bet on switzerland!"

They laughed.... caucasians from god knows where laughed at me. (no offense)

hahahahhaha. now i'm laughing at myself and someones in trouble. soon.

haha.

hmm.. i lost my cheesy ness. well then, its time i talk about my dear.. you seee well, have i ever told you how beautiful she is? well.. words cant actually put it out.